| | He loved her deeply, so he wanted to
show her what he had found. Because he didn't make it up, he had
indeed found this thing, had uncovered it like a fossil, slowly,
carefully, piece by piece, bone by bone. Indeed, he did not know
whether he had revealed the whole thing. But he was ready to show
someone, and because he loved her he had decided that she would be
the first to witness his discovery. “So, are we going to the park
tonight?” she asked. “Oh, thank you! It seems so important, but
I keep forgetting.” They were in his father's silver hybrid, and
had just left his house. She had to be home at ten tonight, which
was okay with him because that meant the moon would be up by the time
he started driving her home. The drive to her house was fairly
short, not quite a full mile, but tonight they were making a stop.
There was a small city park about halfway between them, about a block
wide and two blocks long. Just a big grass field surrounded by
trees, a basketball court, some picnic benches, restrooms, swing set,
and your basic climbing structures. In itself, it wasn't all that
much. But you could get a beautiful view of the rising moon if you
stood in the right place, which was why it was important for him
tonight. They made their way to the park,
talking and laughing and being in love the whole way. They got
there, and he parked in the street, just a few steps from the grass
and trees, just a few steps from where he would show her. The grass
formed a small hill as soon as you left the sidewalk, with trees at
the crest, and then dipped down into the bowl of the grass field. He
looked around, looked at the moon, looked for the perfect spot to do
it. He had done this before, though at a different field under a
different stand of trees, and he felt like he ought to be very
particular about how he did this. There was a problem, though. The
reason he always did it in a dark field under a stand of trees was
that he felt self-conscious about what he did, because he knew it
might frighten some people, and if it didn't scare them then they
still might not understand. The problem was, there were people here.
It was almost ten o'clock at night and there were two groups of
people, one a the picnic benches and one walking down a path that led
to the sidewalk. Worse yet, the field wasn't dark. There were
lights over the sidewalk, and there were more lights over by the
basketball court. Anyone who looked at them would at least see an
outline of someone there, and he preferred to be as hidden as
possible. If he was going to scare people, he wanted to really scare
them. He didn't want to let them write it off as some crazy kid, and
he felt that if they could connect the voice with a body it would be
too easy for them to do that. He didn't want people to run away when
they heard him, but he wanted them to stop what they were doing to
listen. Because what he was saying was important. He could say it with her there,
though. Because he trusted her to listen and take it seriously. “Aw, crap. I can't do it with
people around. They can see me, and that'll make me feel weird about
it.” “Umm, maybe if you were under the trees here?” “That
might work. Hm. Let's wait until these people are gone, though.”
They stood and waited for the group on the path, who looked like they
were about to leave. It took so long it felt like the departing
party were crawling on their stomachs. After they had turned the corner and
walked out of sight there was only the other group by the tables, and
they looked like they had a fire going in one of those disgusting
barbecue pits they always have in parks like this. They seemed far
away, and if he stood beneath the trees it would be harder for them
to see him. “I think I can do it now.” He found a good
shadowy place, but one where he could see the moon without any
branches in the way. Because to do this, he needed a direct link to
the moon. He had to be able to clearly hear what the moon told him
so that he could translate it for everyone else to hear. He found
his place, and stood there, staring at the moon. Waiting. It's like one of those devices that
are supposed to help us communicate with the dead. It draws you
along the line of performing the action versus having the action
performed through you. The way some people write, some people play
music, some people play sports, some people fight and kill. This is
what I do instead of those things. I laugh. He felt the cars behind him, driving
past. They weren't a distraction as he thought they might have been.
On the contrary, he wished a whole succession of them would go past
at once, since their noise seemed to push him towards it. He kept
staring at the moon, but blinking. It would take some time, and he
couldn't afford to let discomfort distract him. Then one more car
drove by, and it came out of him. He laughed. It wasn't polite. It
wasn't quiet. He laughed. It wasn't happy. It wasn't good-natured.
He laughed. It wasn't silly, it wasn't fun. He laughed. It wasn't
cruel. It wasn't mean. He laughed. One hears wolf howls all the time,
even if one does not live with them. Thanks to television, we can
hear all sorts of things. And if one goes to the right places, one
can hear humans trying to imitate that noise, often out of silliness.
But anyone who has heard one will tell you that a wolf's howl is not
silly. The reason we have to be silly to make that noise is that it
isn't a human noise. Laughter is a very human noise. What he let
loose was humankind's response to a wolf's howl. He laughed. What's so funny? Everything, man.
Everything. When he was done, he stood for a
moment and realized she was watching him. He could feel her looking
at him, and that look understood what he had just finished saying.
That was good. If she could understand what his laugh had meant,
then he knew he loved exactly the right woman. She came to him and
he pulled her against him and found her mouth. The passion felt new, like freshly mined
ore. Raw, uncut, unpolished. The kind of stuff that reminds people
why they're married, only they weren't yet. When the flames died down a bit, he
led her back to the car. She said, “Wanted to join in, but I
didn't know how.” “I kind of hoped and thought you
would. I wouldn't worry about knowing how, dear. I think you could
figure it out. Maybe next time you can join me. I think it would
sound even better with two.” |